PROPOSITION! by Sophie Johnson

In stolen fantasies

of a ghost world

See my mortal wound

pressed shut beneath

its gauzy veil

Low and deep,

it whispers

to be opened

PROPOSITION by Sophie Johnson (PRATT aquaintance)

R.I.P. ~*Sexii Shannon*~

MAN!!! The last two weeks of my life have been so _______....You fill in the blank! Just whatever you can get out of this rant!
It all started on September 30th when I stayed in the house and was paid a visit from an old HS friend.....too weird because he looked like he was still suffering through hormonally ruptured puberty!
Lol! he looked good though...not weird.... Just fuerte! But anyway! We chilled then I woke up the next morning to a phone call from mi amiga Netchem! and What she had to tell me was no news to start off a morning with.... From then on I think my body was drained of all the zeal and fervor I had that day!
It just so happens that one of our own "children" at the Brooklyn Children's Museum was murdered by her own cousin. I wont emphasize the details so research it if u want on your own! I was just so distraught. In all the years that I participated in the Museum Team program, I never imagined any such misfortune could come to our family in this form.
It just shows how the great can be snatched from your hands faster than the bad! The next few days hard for us all but never in my life have I seen so many teenagers band together to find the good in life. It shows how even adolescents can have a deeply evolved mental knowledge of cooping with situations. Even though we are marked as irresponsible, we find ways to make up for the nonsense!
So I just thought I should add in this note that I love you all so much! I love you Netchem, I love you Delissa, I love you Keon, I love you Carlos, I love you all within my heart! and how could I forgot the bosses of our furthered success Miriam, Ebon, Aiesha, Ahmed, and Roz! LOL!
I have lost family members and have never shed a tear but losing someone as genuine as Shannon has broken down my shallow mind into something that think Karpe Diem should b taken way more seriously these days. Not in a careless way though!
One thing I noticed about Shannon was that each day I saw her at the museum, she always had a new goal for the Day and she always had a song in her heart.... LITERALLY! lol. If she didn't see one day, the next day she'd give me a big hug and chat for a while! She was so focused so I just don't know how I can't miss her!
However, Just to let everyone know, if anyone close to me in the museum or my life period, died I would not hesitate to show part two of this sadness! The only reason why I can say I'm peaceful now is because I know deep within that Shannon is in a MUCH better place than I am!
To end off, this is what I can express to her soul now and forever!

• "R.I.P Ms. Shannon B!! and I promise the tears I shed for u from now on will only be of joy because i know within my heart that your in a MUCH better place now!!"

My first Rant....to KDOGG!

Since your always telling me to just go ahead and start a blog I figured I'd dedicate this structurally well though tout rant to u!

SINCE only you (kdogg) can decipher my locomotive antics I thought i would just record the crazy wall-to-wall conversation i had with myself on 10/11/08 at night...HERE IT IS!!
Courtney James: 11:11pm yesterday:

• hahaha 11:11pm....make a wish girly!

Courtney James 11:12pm yesterday:

• THIS IS A RANT! Anyway...I had to post that comment before the time turned to 11:12pm! So here I am! Chillaxing, scratching my neck, AND typing like 900 words per minute all at the same time when I suddenly realize how freaking available my life has become!!! lol....
• Whoa Baby! Just wrote that because I wanted to but no... uh yeah! I just realized--while I was in the shower--that I need confusion in my life! I had the mean convulsion that almost made my turb-a-lard behind slip and slide out of the the bathtub. Probably causing a chain reaction of unfortunate events like the shower curtain popping from its prongs or I dont know! a possible earthquake due to my 180 lb structure!
• HA HA HA!...Yo Son! I have intensely addicted to Janelle Monae all week and Im tired of obsessing! I need to find out more about the world of Afro punk.... And oh man! She got me hooked like drug addicts to crack flavored chalk!...Does this rant make ANY sense at all??

Courtney James 11:29pm yesterday:

• .... So0o I've been laughing so much lately because even though I am peaceful at heart, I now know that my life is chaotic for a reason and I'm not talking about these guys in our lives! I'm talking about the generality (if thats even una palabra) of me surviving in this topsy-turvy-filtered-free-cuz-we're-so-fucked-up-with-pollution-world!!! WHAT THE HELL!
• I mean come on! if there was no action of unorganized talent i ALL of our lives, then we'd all be bored dried up casava loving he'she's with turkey necks strung to our belts! GET ME!! I need confusion, OR as I'd like to call it "DRAMA"--....NOT uniformity to reign at least 30% of the time in my life porque thats the only way i'll be able to look forward to tomorrow. The only way I strive....and don't deny it my dears.... I done put this in my blogspot SHAWTY!! Comment cdbmjrants.blogger.com